will we still going on?

this few days suddenly happened many things for me and you!
i did the wrong things for the past, and now i think is the time for me to get the balasan?
i dont know this things can be hurt you for so long and deep,
and i dont know this things can influence us.
i do still want to be with you,
but you can sometimes u treat me so good, sometimes u treat me bad,
n you dont know what you want and tired.
but my feeling for now is very bad, and i have arrange many things for you and me,
now u said u tired and...
i really very hurt enough n cried every time when i think about it.
i need a people to talk with,
but i dont know find who else to talk,
it is because you're too perfect to them,
as i told them you're perfect for me.
so how now?
i really dont want the bad conclusion and want to have a further steps with you.
is that for me to change?
if u're away from me,
i think i will change alot,
maybe not so good as now,
maybe i'm not chasing my dreams anymore?
many maybe...but i dont know how you going to settle between you and me.
i obey your decision,
i let you to have priority to make decision,
any decision will see how later on.